Mommy's Abroad, Motherhood

Bunda Lanjut Kuliah? Kenapa Engga?

“Ayah kantor.. Bunda kampus.. Runa kolah..” Begitu kira-kira celoteh Runa (2y 2m) di pagi hari sebelum berangkat sekolah dan juga setelah pulang sekolah. Hmm.. Senang dengernya. Setiap saya jemput di sekolah, saya selalu memeluk Runa dan bilang: “Makasih ya Runa, sudah membantu Bunda hari ini, Runanya pinter sudah sekolah, Bunda jadi bisa ke kampus.”

Yang tadinya saya pikir adalah hal mustahal untuk bisa mencicipi kembali bangku kuliah, ternyata bisa dijalani. Seperti yang pernah saya kisahkan sebelumnya di sini mengenai kuliah di LN sambil mengurus anak. Saya mau sedikit sharing pengalaman saya selama sekitar setengah tahun menjadi mahasiswi lagi. Banyak hikmah yang bisa saya dapat selama waktu tersebut, banyak belajar, banyak trial error, dan sebagainya. Alhamdulillah Allah selalu memberikan kemudahan dibalik kesulitan. Continue reading “Bunda Lanjut Kuliah? Kenapa Engga?”

Journey, Just Learning, Motherhood

It’s Not Too Late

One of my favorite HIMYM episodes is HIMYM season8 eps 17.

What’s Lily going through maybe similar with what I’m thinking for this time..

And Marshall is so sweet :’)

Marshall: “Oh my God, Lily! What is the big deal? Okay, so what? So he said you’re just a kindergarten teacher. Why do you let that bother you?”

Lily: “Because he was right. I am just a kindergarten teacher.” “And yes, I have a degree in art history and i was meant to do something with it, but i didn’t.” “Somewhere along the line, I forgot to pursue my dream, and now.. I’m old and I’m a mom and it’s just too late for me.

Marshall: “No.. no.. no.. It’s not too late. You”re gonna quit your job tomorrow. And you’re gonna go back and pick up right where you left off with that art stuff.” “And then you know what. I’m gonna find Shelly, and I’m gonna punch her in the face. I am gonna punch a girl and run away.”

Marshall: “Look..  I promise you, your best and your most exciting days are all ahead of you.”

Lily: I love you so much for saying that, but there gets to be a point in life where that just stops being true.”

And you know what, the good thing in the story is.. yes, it’s not too late.. She still can get her dream.

So can I, right? Although it’s not instantly happen, and it may take years..

Just Learning, Only a Story

Cross the Line

Ok, this is the biggest problem of me.

I have great dreams, I have strong motivation, I have potency.

But my mistake is, I overthink. I always think what happen next after I do this? will I pass this challange? Am I good enough? Can I? Will I? And all those questions spinning in my mind, like a disco lamp, ajep ajep ajep. That “overthink” holds me from pulling the best side of me. crapp.. This is really my big problem,.

When I am in my way, trying to reach my dream, I often get stumble with my problem, inside of me. When I thought that I already gave my best, well actually I didn’t. really shame on me. I actually scare to cross the line.

However, how hard actually to cross the line??

I think it’s really hard for Dave Levey, a Hell’s Kitchen 6 Winner.

-let’s change in Bahasa, it easier from me-

Saya menonton episode Hell’s Kitchen yang dipimpin oleh koki profesional garang sedunia, Chef Gordon Ramsay baru pada season ke -6. Awalnya saya ga begitu suka, karena setiap episode penuh dengan teriakan-teriakan dan makian kasar, grrrr… Sakit telinga dengernya. Tapi lama-lama kebiasa juga denger siksaan dari Chef Ramsay ini.

Dave Levey, salah satu kontestan di Hell’s Kitchen  musim ini berangkat dari bukan apa-apa. Bahkan di episode ke -4, Dave sudah menunjukkan gejala penurunan stamina. Tangan kirinya bermasalah. Ia diperiksa dan lengannya diberi penyangga.

Dokter lalu menghubunginya lagi, kurang lebih kata-katanya seperti ini: “ligamenmu robek, akan sulit bagimu untuk menggunakan tanganmu, ibu jarimu mungkin tidak bisa digunakan. Kamu harus dirawat, pikirkan baik-baik kondisimu”

Chef Ramsay pun berbicara serius dengannya: “Do you want to continue this? This is a big decision for you, you’ have to think it”

But Dave didn’t overthink it. He just do what his dream tell to him: “Yes, I will stay.”

Chef Ramsay mempercayai keyakinan Dave dan akhirnya memberikan perawatan untuk lengannya semaksimal mungkin agar dia bisa tetap kembali berkompetisi.

Mungkin kalau saat itu dia terlalu banyak berpikir mengenai risiko, maka dia tidak akan menjadi head chef in exclusive Araxi Restaurant & Bar in BC. Dave tidak terlalu banyak berpikir, tidak terlalu banyak bicara, he just do, do, do. He did his best and he deserved the best too.. He Crossed the line, He nailed it, he did cross the barrier line.

*I hope I can do just like Dave did* I am struggle with it.

Well, this is a good learning from me…

Suddenly, I remember Barney said to Ted: Ted you’re problem is all you do is think, think, think. I’m teaching you to do, do do.

He’s right. I am the Ted, all I do is think think think..

But at least, from now, I’m not only thinking, I also writing here, heuheuheu..

Somebody please always remind me to stay awake